25/08/13

We are just passing through

"But lately.. I’ve been forgetting little things. He’s sort of fading and I’m starting to forget him. And it’s like, like losing him again. So sometimes, I make myself remember every detail of his face, the exact color of his eyes, his lips, his teeth, the texture of his skin, his hair. That was all gone by the time he went. And sometimes, not always, but sometimes.. I can actually see him. It's as if a cloud moves away and there he is, I could almost touch him. But then.. the real world rushes in and he vanishes again. But what all I did every morning when the sun was not too bright outside, but the sun somehow makes him vanish. It's he appears and he disappears, like a sunrise and a sunset, anything, so ephemeral. It's just like our life, we appear and we disappear. And we are so important to some. But we are just.. passing through.” 
- Natalia in "Before Midnight"

22/08/13

You've got time

What is it?
it is nothing but eater
it only does eating in its life
what else can it do?

It can do something else

Really?

Absolutely

Like what?

Sh*tting

Is that supposed to be funny?

You think it’s not?

No, it is LOL LOL LOL

Did you just say lollollol?

Yeah why?

Oh, you’re so not cool

What? You are not cool
I am the coolest of all, junk!

You don’t say it, stupid
it’s an expression
it’s an acronym for laughing out loud

Whatever

What about us then?

What about us?

What can we do?

Many things

Like what?

Reading, watching, shopping, traveling, everything!

Everything?

Did I just hear sarcasm in that?

No
it’s just
what you mentioned
we’re just the same like “it”, man!

What do you mean?

We’re doing nothing!
we’re doing nothing but consuming!
like “it”!
eating!
why can’t we do anything else?!
like sh*tting!

I don’t understand
isn’t it anything else?
and do you think sh*tting is way better than consuming?

You are so f*cking retarded
I mean producing!
like making something!
why can’t we make something?!

You mean why can’t YOU make something?
I can make something just so you know
I can make cool drawings, cool mixed songs, cool short stories, cool film, even cool porn videos
there’s so many I can’t even mention all of it

Damn

What?

WHY CAN’T I PRODUCE SOMETHING?!!

20/08/13

You are the night of my life, oh my love oh my dear blablabla

All nights that passed
I end up thinking of you

Night
is the quietest of all time
and the time when I am usually awaken

Do you know
it’s been three years since the first time I started to think about you
and that first time was
when I first saw you

Love at first sight, huh?
how great is it?
yeah
you my dear

Then it became such a problem
cause it grows bigger and bigger every night
until I don’t know when

Should I end this?
I surely hope can do
but
it is not me to decide
my heart does

Yesterday
I slept at 7 pm
and wakes up at 3 am
still
never miss the part when I’m missing you

I wonder
why should I let this permanent-melancholy-love-feeling-that-becomes-pain eating me?
you know how pathetic I am
when I say

“IT’S BETTER TO FEEL PAIN, THAN NOTHING AT ALL”

Well
the sentence doesn’t come out from my mouth
it’s a line from “Stubborn Love” by The Lumineers

Hey wait
is this still a poem?
I don’t know
is it ever a poem?

***

(Love is a really strong word as you may know
and it’s kinda hard of using this when I said “love at first sight”
it was an attraction, I believe
nothing such “love at first sight” ever exists
you are just attracted, idiot!
wake UP!

When it lasts long
then you can call it “it”
)