Good luck on that

Where are you love?

I wait
I pray that we meet
but never shows up

I’m such a failure
just hope but do nothing

Why can’t I change?

I suffer
no passion in life
only being obsessive by some things
oh my

Looking up at others
envy every time
how I want to know what it feels like

Looking low at some
so I feel better
but it’s just pathetic!

Can I kill me?

I would love to
but then
it’s everyone that I think of!

No
it’s not like I care of them losing me
because

No one’s going to really feel lost
it’s just
I care about what they would think of me

Killing myself!
makes it even more pathetic, right?

Why do I want so much?
why can’t I just be grateful of what I have?
why can’t I just enjoy life?

Why can’t I just love it?

I don’t even have any damn curiosity about any useful things but …

(Can’t tell that)